Have you ever had a good day but you couldn’t point out what made the day good? Today was a good day but I know exactly the source. How about your day? Was today good for you? Or was it a hard day? Did you know we have a choice? If “the same power that raised Christ from death is at work in us, the believers” we can speak to dead situations or for the sake of this post, into bad days.
Earlier this month I decided to release the fear related to not being successful in my current position. As a hospice volunteer manager I chase numbers, which means I have to have a certain number of volunteer hours, to stay in compliance. During the tenure with the previous company I never worried about the numbers. In fact I didn’t even check the numbers throughout the month and waited until I completed the month end report. Now, hear my heart, I am in no way bragging. The previous company’s program was stable and solid because of the ground work laid early on. However, I am fairly new with this company and if I could be transparent we have yet to see the full percentage.
Over the past 5 months I’ve worked hard to create a solid program. Yet, knowing the percentage was not been met grieved and kept me up at night. Specifically, during the past 3 months, fear regarding the numbers overwhelmed me. It caused great turmoil and the more I fed the anxiety by checking the numbers throughout the month, the deeper I fell into the fear trap. There were days where I came and went from the office burdened down by shame, sadness, and defeat. None of which are of God. In fact fear is not of God and 2 Timothy 1:7 “For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but power, love and self-discipline.” In other words this gift of fear was not from God and I was about to learn how to overcome it.
The spirit that sent me fear in many ways became the lower case “g” god in my life. Shocking, I know. Yet, the first step was to repent to God. It sounds harsh but if you have other gods before God you should admit and turn away from them. I turned from where I was headed and then started to denounce lies with God’s truth. Freedom!!!!!
The first truth is that my God cares about the wildflowers He certainly cares for me (Matthew 6:30 GNT emphasis mine). God led me to the current job. He didn’t bring me there so that I could struggle. However, if something was to happen at the job my God would provide because He cares about me.
The next truth is that this season is about growing my faith. Faith is to be sure of what I hope for and certain of what I don’t see (Hebrews 11:1 GNT with emphasis). It was a big move in faith to transition to a new company knowing that the former company was a sweet spot. However, I got out of the boat of what felt familiar and God has been revealing His goodness in my life.
Final truth is that in all things I am more than conqueror through Him who loves me (Romans 8:37 NIV emphasis is mine). No matter the struggle each day I choose to happiness. It doesn’t even matter what the numbers bring because I am already victorious. I chose to kick fear out of the door. Literally, one Saturday I went to my job and prayed around my office that fear wouldn’t dwell there because I was trusting Jesus. I starved fear by feeding faith. So how was your day?
Speak life into your today. Replace fear in your life with God’s truth. It is deeper waters but God’s word says in Hebrews 13:6 “The Lord is my/your/our helper: I/you/we will not be afraid” (emphasis mine).